09.01.14 – I first posted this back in July but as we are possibly going to read The Power of Now by Ekhart Tolle I thought I’d repost. We all need a bit of stillness in our lives now and again.
I was going to start this by talking about last nights visit to my first Stillness Group but I had an epiphany on the way to work that I want to share. I was in that great centre for spirituality – Greggs the bakers – buying my morning cup of tea when I caught a glimpse of me in a mirror and thought “I quite like you”. Now I have spent years looking at myself and comparing myself to others to the extent that I have become possibly my worst critic and a negative one at that. But lately I have been experimenting with clothes and found myself a lot more comfortable in my own skin. I used to hide behind black and for a long time have been hiding in trousers and baggy tops. I’m not wearing anything radical today, just a long skirt and top but I feel good and I feel ok with me. I’ve also cut a lot of my hair off going from a mid length bob to a style cut very short at the back and longer at the front. It suits me. I’m still the same person inside but I like her these days
I think last night’s ties in with this a little bit. I attended my first Ekhart Tolle Stillness group. The session is made up of 10 minutes stillness, followed by a DVD of one of Ekhart’s talks and then for those that can stay it ends with a 30 minute stillness session. I wasn’t sure what to expect but I managed to be still for the reiki session so I’m hopeful I can get through this.
Now I’ve mentioned before I most likely have undiagnosed ADHD. I can’t sit still. I struggle to stay focussed on anything for very long. I’m the girl who makes a lot of tea at work to allow me to be on the move. I was the girl who always finished her work early at school then spent the rest of my time distracting everyone else. I am not very good at watching TV, So I’m unsure if I can do this at all but I’m determined to have a go. It actually feels like meditation, I manage to clear my head of all thoughts except the thought that I’m not thinking. If that makes sense! You can hear everything around you – the children playing outside the centre, the tapping of the blinds on the window, the footsteps of a guy who came in a little late and the constant chomping of a guy eating boiled sweets. That became almost deafening in the silence. It’s a very similar feeling to when I tried the Reiki, the draining of all thought, the slowness of breathing, the feeling of peace. I have for many years tried to follow the teachings of Taoism but tended to fail on the meditation side of things. I am starting to feel now that maybe I just needed a little bit of guidance and I am going to try again on my own in my own house. Again it feels like a breakthrough.
I wanted to discuss the Ekhart Tolle talk as I took from it quite a few things but this blog would go on forever. I think I’m going to buy his book “The Power of Now” which the talk was based on to consolidate my learning and then come back to this with a more in depth write up.
But I’m learning to love the outer layer of me and learning to work with the inner me and that can never be a bad thing
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